Out of my system...

My sis is going to be here soon to drive me to the airport!
Doing a one week training camp with former Olympian cyclists...should be fun!
Funny though, I have so badly wanted to do a training camp, but now that Shawn and the kids have left to pick up Nana..I am soooo sad, and I just want to stay home with my family.
I cried so much, and still am prone to breakdowns!
Before Shawn and the kids, I used to take off every weekend, used to go away ALL the time...now it seems like the biggest deal, just going to Victoria for a week by myself!! Seems selfish!
I hope this is worth it....not sure how I will know if it is worth it! What do I want to achieve?
What do I really want!?!
Did I mention that I keep checking the weather in Victoria and all I see is rain, rain and more rain!! Seriously, why am I heading to the rain!
Well, I am going....we will see what happens. I hope I have fun, I hope I learn lots, I hope I get faster and I hope that I don't miss everyone all week as much as I am missing them now!